"Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, and above. "
-Gia Marie Carangi

The world greeted me on February 16, 1991; which makes me 17 years of age. I have been broken and jaded but I am moving on. I always wish on 11:11, someday my wishes will come true. I try to always say what is on my mind but it does not always happen. I care about what people say, and what people think. I can be a bit obsessive about things. When I get really nervous or upset I make myself sick. I am bipolar and I am not ashamed of it. I am irrational about things sometimes, but I almost always calm down and rationalize in the end. I am an insomniac, but I am not a normal one, I can sleep but only when I am really happy or with people I feel safe around. I rarely ever remember my dreams, but I always remember my nightmares. I know what love is whether you choose to believe it or not. I have loved, and I have lost. I have some of the most amazing friends ever whom I would be nothing without. I learned to take life day by day this past summer, and at times it is hard but I am doing it. Music, writing, and acting are big parts of who I am, I feel incomplete without those aspects of my life. I am addicted to texting. I read constantly, and I have a habit of reading books over and over again, I also read very fast. I hate hearing my own voice, I think it sounds weird. I do think I have a really good singing voice though, and I have been told so by professional’s so I do not care if you think I suck. I have started working extremely hard at writing and acting, I plan to be a journalist and act on stage for a living. I would love to be a big time actress though, maybe someday. I make a lot of mistakes, but I will always apologize and try to fix it. I have a heart the size of China. Love me if you want to, hate me if you want to, it does not matter to me in the end.

Sometimes, don't you just want Winnie Cooper(me) and Kevin Arnold(you) to end up together?

count a thumb then two fingers in, thats the one i want. photography. writing. singing. acting. painting. reading. foreign cultures. different languages. music. astrology. tarot. greek and roman mythology. having faith. 11:11. lucid dreaming. nightmares. creating my reality. creating a fantasy. psychology. monsters. not lying. having butterflies. substance. keyboard. ghost hunting. reconstruction. mannequins. friends all over the country. black holes. aliens. possibly existent creatures. the holocaust. thrifting. text monsters. proving you wrong. feeling infinite.

is everything to me. i would not survive without it. basically any and all music is amazing. these are just some of the things i listen to. i could write a novel if i listed everything.

Across The Universe, Alice In Wonderland, Behind The Red Door, Blue Collar Comedy I-II, Brother Bear, Capote, Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Chocolat, Corpse Bride, The Covenant, Darkness Falls, Dracula, Grease, Gladiator, Edward Scissorhands, Finding Nemo, Finding Neverland, From Hell, Harry Potter I-V, John Carpenter’s Halloween, Last Of The Mohicans, Lion King, The Lost Boys, Nightmare Before Christmas, The Ninth Gate, Passion Of The Christ, Peter Pan, Pirates Of The Caribbean I-III, Secret Window, Sleepy Hollow, Spirit: Stallion Of The Cimarron, Sweeney Todd, Titanic, Transformers, Troy, Vampires, What's Eating Gilbert Grape

The Boy With The Thorn In His Side, The Perks Of Being A Wallflower, The Outsiders, The Catcher In The Rye, Me Talk Pretty One Day, House Of Night Series, Twilight Series, Morganville Vampires Series, The Chronicles Of Narnia Series, Witch Child, Sorceress, Harry Potter Series, Interview With The Vampire, Vampire Kisses Series, Peter Pan, Speak, Cut, Wicked: The Life And Times Of The Wicked Witch Of The West, Son Of A Witch, Dracula, To Kill A Mockingbird, Walden, Death Be Not Proud, Tithe Series, Vampire Academy Series, Choke, Fight Club, Anything by Beverly Lewiw, Or Sarah Dessen, Or Francesca Lia Block